GET TO KNOW YOURSELF
You can be intellectually stimulated but not soul-stimulated. I had this realization in my last corporate job, and tried to understand what I needed to change. I was interested in the research work I was doing, I connected with the company I was working for (eBay is in the business of supporting small business and sustainability), I was appreciated and recognized, and the pay was great. I wanted to feel thankful, and instead I was feeling unhappy and ungrateful. As an immigrant and mom, what else could I want? - my mind would say.
The heart knows better. My heart didn't truly connect with my work. The work I did bypassed my soul, which gave me a sense of emptiness, of worthlessness, of hopelessness. I kept trying to figure out how to course correct.
I realized recently that perhaps the reason it took me so long to figure out my calling was that I was looking for the wrong outcome. I wasn't actually looking for the right job.
I was looking to get to know myself. To see who was that SELF I was looking to express.
I probably could have benefited from a support kit for women like me - ambitious, determined, who checked all the career boxes, but didn't feel fulfilled by the work. I knew I needed to change my life, but didn't know how to do it.
In those tough times, I began to journal daily. "I know I have gifts, I just don't know what they are and how to put them to use" I wrote back then. I was looking for clarity on my vision, and to align my strengths and my values with my work. I was looking to reconnect with my inner creative energy - my true power. I was creating the space for my soul to grow into. This inner work is not straight forward. Each of us is a Hero on our own Journey - our own unique vision to uncover. We are stewards to an inner world we are here to nourish. We are here to bring our vision to life.
That's why I decided to pivot and became a life coach. I had no idea how I would make money, but as soon as I discovered this work and got over my cynicism, I realized this is what I'm here to do. I'm thrilled to see how the 1:1 coaching support has helped my clients course-correct their own life in the past couple of years. I'm honored to support women who are ready to untangle their vision from their self-doubt, self-sabotage, assumptions, and fears.
